After so long, I have gotten the inspiration to write again. These words are the only solace I get apart from Krishna and my job. Not knowing what will happen next, I am being scared to trust humans again. I do not know who will let me down the next, who will hurt me again, who will mistake me. I have put myself on reliance with people other than me. This world is darkening for me.
From somewhere, an old bond has regained its underlying strength with me. I cry at the twists of fate whips onto my life for the past 3 years. Ever since Feb 2010 till today, the wounds that I have gotten from the whips is still not vanishing. The scars are ugly. I hate to see myself in the mirror.
The God stands alone with his flute and gives me his glorious smile. I cry and ask why this game. He replies me like he is doing this on purpose. A part of me wants to get out of this earth, with no hope on life and humans; I am letting myself unto fate whips again.
Sinful creatures are humans. We do countless number of sins everyday, every single moment. We suffer because of our karma. Never in my re-births should I suffer this much. Forgive me my lord, my sins will end at your feet.
- A broken soul
